Ahh, reality. One of my top most scary words for me. Next to exams and studying. I do find my self as a care free person. Which led me to having a harder time as time flies. I'm 16 in the next 4 days. In the next few years I'd be in college. Then the next hing I know I'm gonna be earning my own money with my bare hands. (metaphorically speaking) My parents does not think that I know how hard it is to make money in this world. And how when I have kids I will understand.

Oh how I wish they know I'm different.

I know I can be immature and shits but my mind knows how to think rationally. Of course I know it's hard. Getting money out of you is hard enough imagine trying to earn it. Every human being with a mind will obviously feel good after earning something when they worked hard for it and when it is earned they'll appreciate it. And to just give it away to be wasted on your children 'random shopping for useless things' or 'random lunch/dinner with friends' Is not a good feeling. So, yeah I know it is hard to earn money. Like said, 'money doesn't grow on trees'

That's why in my thinking, before I suffer to earn my own money, I enjoy yours. The world is not free. So it's obvious I'll pay you back. You know when I earn my own expenses.

I can't wait to leave this place.

I can't wait to leave home.

I don't have a terrible life actually. I'm a normal kid with a normal dull life.

I have a shelter over me.

I have food on the table.

I have clothes to wear.

My parents don't abuse me.

I don't get bullied in school.

Family that loves me.

In front of peoples eyes my life isn't so bad.

But still. I would rather just live alone. I have times in life where I'd rather be alone. I go school, I socialize. I come home, I still have to socialize but with my family. Never time for myself unless I lock myself in the room. I'm hoping when I get to live alone I come home to nothing to socialize with after a day of socializing.

I'm weird I know.

I have a bad personality and I know that too. Of course you can take me as the kind of people that will not give a fuck of what you think of me. Go ahead and judge. I don't have to be all up in your face telling you not to judge me unless I can make the whole world stop it. It's normal to judge a person by their personality or appearance. Think bad of me. It does not matter to me.