I realize how I get super annoying and paranoid when he doesn't text for a couple of days. I'm afraid he would forget me. Like, what if I think of him more than he he thinks of me. Do I cross his mind everyday like he does on mind? Now, I would text him. I don't have to wait for him to text me. He always makes the first conversation I know that. But back when we were dating I didn't mind texting like there was no tomorrow even if he didn't reply. This time, I feel like every text I text him, I would be bothering him. I mean, the main original thing I was suppose to do when we broke up was to never talk to each other. But even if now that I can, I still feel like I can't.

What if he doesn't want to talk to me?  I feel like every question I ask is a stupid one and he hates me more every time. Nellie would tell me he misses me just the same, thinking it would bring me comfort. That would be one of the greatest probability but I rather pick the worse case scenario which is he doesn't. He stops thinking about me and sooner or later he will forget my existence and I'm the one begging to at least be in his life. Yay. More pathetic quotes. #cringingforever

I'm gonna try and ask him a question. I'm pretty sure he is gonna reply half heartedly and think it's a stupid waste of time.